On our way back, Casey finally woke up and decided that she was hungry. I was in the back seat next to her (Tee's sister was up front - wow, this post has a lot of side notes, eh?), and so I did my best to soothe. She wasn't really pleased with my efforts, wanting the real stuff!, and therefore cried for a good 20 minutes. By the end of the ride, I was nearly as much of a mess as she, getting emotional and worrying that I was going to lose my 3-month-old's trust (read Dr. Sears, y'all). I had a headache, felt sick to my stomach, and was plaintively calling from the back, "I'm getting sick!"
We pulled into the driveway and instead of taking Casey's car seat into the house, I just unstrapped her, grabbed her from the car, and literally ran inside so that she could nurse.
As she was eating, my tension and "illnesses" gradually subsided. When she looked up at me after a few moments, caught my eye, and broke out into a huge smile (forgetting the she was nursing - which, let me tell you, can make for a mess!), I felt such an amazing delight and laughed back at Casey, realizing that being a Mommy is truly all-encompassing.
Yes, our schedules and our wallets (and sometimes our patience!) are all stretched a little thinner. Our emotions are heightened. And today, it was clear that we are even affected physically by having this little bundle of joy in our lives.
It's pretty cool to know that our hearts aren't the only things in this.
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